The reasons for moving - I'd be right next to transportation to my double vision specialist (there are so many new glasses, gadgets to help people with double vision), to my twin brother, to his baby girl, to writing meetings/conferences downtown, to finishing my college degree in the classroom, to free classical music concerts in Millennium Park, etc. I'd be walking distance from Lake Michigan, a grocery store, a book store, coffee shops that have free wi fi and to a library. I wouldn't be walking on eggshells with Karen, tolerating her temper tantrums, tolerating the colostomy smell that she intentionally makes horrid because of the huge amount of cheese and butter she eats. I wouldn't need to have to work/write, wearing earplugs over earphones so I don't hear her; all day she makes noise in the kitchen but does nothing but cater to her eating disorder. And I'm in touch with my cousin. He's very involved with AA and is ready to take me to my first twenty meetings so that I'm in contact, not only with other humans, but other healthy humans that know what's it like. I'm free of wanting to drink but socializing with with them will be great. I can't even get to a meeting out here.
The reasons for staying - There may be subsequent guilt after I leave, for having left Karen. And I'll be able to save more money (but for what?)
Lastly, I saw a psychiatrist yesterday that is also Karen's psychiatrist. He thinks that I need to move forward and he thinks that ultimately Karen needs to be in a cared nursing facility.
I could wait. I could make the move in six months. What's the advantage to that? But I could.
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